Can I?

Can I be that one person?

That one that's constantly on your mind.  That one person you would always reply fast to.  The one your friends hear about everyday of their lives.  The one you check up on every now and then just to see how their day is going.  The one that makes your day.  The one you'd do anything for.  The one you smile nonstop about.  The one you can be your complete self around.  The person you love undoubtedly.

Can I?

Jangan

Kalau betul
Hadirmu hanya sementara..
Aku mohon,
Jangan terlalu rapat dengan aku.
Jangan beri harapan pada aku.
Jangan.
Jangan bina angan-angan masa hadapan
Bersama aku..

Once Upon A Time

Bismillah

"What do you do when the love you have inside of you is only meant for one person?
I have been where you are.
I am still here, where you are.
My love never left him, even though he has gone.
How can you change your thoughts, when they only know of him?
How is it that we lose the one thing we wish we had?
I lost him and then, I lost myself.
I have been broken ever since.
Why is it that the one who is meant to heal our heart, is the one that broke it?
The one who is meant to make us laugh, the one we are meant to say the stupidest things to.
Everyday seems like a fight.
A battle I don't have the strength to be part of.
I was blessed with a partner in crime and good throughout.
I was truly blessed to survive the battle with that one knight in shining armor.
Truly.
And I know of him leaving was best for me.
But my heart hopes, as I hold on to the echoes of our past.
Maybe one day, he will come back."

He did.

Yours Sincerely.
'Izzah Syauqina

Do You Still Love Him?

Bismillah.

"Do you still love him?" she asked.

"For me, it was never a case of still loving him.  I have never stopped.  I tried to let him go, I told myself to think about everything he had done and all the ways he had hurt me.  But all I could think about was my smile in the mornings, and my laughs late at night.  He was the reason for that; he made my days better.

Sure, you're going to have bad days.  But the good always outweighed them.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that.. he had my heart since...... who knows when.

Some pieces I have already taken from him.  Some I'm afraid, I'll never get back.  Either way, his love  is mine to nurture."

Yours Sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

It's So Tragic

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It's so tragic
That after everything you said to me
Every dagger you shot right through my soul..
It always comes back to you.
Everything I do
Everything
Everything
I want it ends with you.
And I can't figure out why.
All I really wanted was
For you to remember me
As someone you loved
So much it consumed you.
But it turns out you never really loved me
Like you said you do.
It's so tragic that you need me
For a benefit, not for you.

Favourite Special Place

I have a unique, favorite special place
where I always like to be.
It is warm and safe and pleasurable;
I’m at peace there and free to be me.

This special place can come to me at will
or I can go to it.
I am relaxed when I am lying down
and I am comforted when I sit.

I look forward to this special place,
I want to be there all the time.
But I know that it’s not feasible,
so I maximize the moments when this place is mine.

Have you figured out this special place?
Based on my description, how could you not know?
That in your presence is a unique and special place
where I feel complete and joyously aglow.

You are the key to my unique favorite special place,
a grand structure filled with beauty, grace, and charm.
Up against your chest, close to your heart, is my favorite special place,
embraced by the gift of your sweet love and your muscular arms.❤️

Caption from: @muslimhusbandwife

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Seksanya Rindu

Bismillah

Janji yg terpateri
Aku ku bawa meniti hari
Walaupun peritnya tak tertanggung kuhadapi
Lantaran jalan hidup ini terlalu berduri
Pernah hampir kukuburkan janjimu daripada hati
Namun kupunya keyakinan diri
Janjimu pasti kan jadi realiti
Merinduimu mengajar aku erti

SEKSANYA RINDU

Aku tertanya-tanya kenapa aku menyiksa diri
Untuk terus merinduimu
Mungkin kerana kaulah 'nur'ku ketika ku teraba-raba menagih secebis kebahagiaan sejati
Mengenal hakikat kejadian ini.
Kaulah yg membawaku mengenal Rabbi
Dan hanya dgn itulah kemanisan hidup ini bisa kurasai.
Jiwaku sering merindui hikmah kalimahmu
Seorang daie
Lantaran itulah ku kan terus memanjat doa agar kita dipertemukan lagi
Mengikat janji
Mendokong risalah ini.
Andai tidak di sini
Nun di syurga menanti
Jika kita layak menghuni.

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina

Redha Dalam Penantian

Bismillah..

Dalam hidup, manusia hanya merancang. Allah penentu segalanya.
Baik atau buruk sesuatu perkara, tak dapat dinilai oleh manusia. Kita harapkan redhaNya semata.

Tuhanku, aku tidak mengerti apa perancanganMu, tapi aku percaya Kau pasti akan merancang yang terbaik.

Tuhanku, Dalam penantian ini kuharapkan redhaMu.

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina