You never apologized to me for hurting me. But I apologized to you ample times for being angry about it.
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So, it goes..
My message was not replied the last time. But I sent you another in case you missed it, and because I simply want a reply.
While waiting for that simple reply I wanted, I accidentelly dozed off because I was bored and it takes you so long to read my message. It was 12+am when I last checked.
Approximately 2 hrs later, a call came in. It was you.. and I was elated. Not for long 'cause you made a big fuss about me not replying, and actually slept.. while you're waiting for MY reply.
The now sleepy me tried to calm you down but failed. You hung up. I was ready to ignore your tantrum and go back to sleep, but decided to read YOUR reply. Just a simple 3 liner reply which can make my waiting a kind of fruitful... actually was read bitter by me.
I called you and tried to talk you round, but I guess the now sleepy me couldn't do much to please you. So I decided to let go.. let you have your rest. And me too of course..
Today, I checked on you. You just woke up. I thought things were gonna be ok now.. but I was totally wrong. You're still angry at me and I don't mind that. However, it's your attitude that disappoints me.
To You, I don't mind you being fussy, spoilt, or just seeking my attention. Whatever it is.. But have you ever thought about me? Your hurting me time and again makes me disheartened.
To You, if this goes on.. I'm afraid you'll lose me along the way. Or say, I'll lose you. 'Cause I don't know how long can this heart of mine can sustain the aches you're causing. Or is it me again? Fine.
Till then..
Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina
