Jangan

Kalau betul
Hadirmu hanya sementara..
Aku mohon,
Jangan terlalu rapat dengan aku.
Jangan beri harapan pada aku.
Jangan.
Jangan bina angan-angan masa hadapan
Bersama aku..

Once Upon A Time

Bismillah

"What do you do when the love you have inside of you is only meant for one person?
I have been where you are.
I am still here, where you are.
My love never left him, even though he has gone.
How can you change your thoughts, when they only know of him?
How is it that we lose the one thing we wish we had?
I lost him and then, I lost myself.
I have been broken ever since.
Why is it that the one who is meant to heal our heart, is the one that broke it?
The one who is meant to make us laugh, the one we are meant to say the stupidest things to.
Everyday seems like a fight.
A battle I don't have the strength to be part of.
I was blessed with a partner in crime and good throughout.
I was truly blessed to survive the battle with that one knight in shining armor.
Truly.
And I know of him leaving was best for me.
But my heart hopes, as I hold on to the echoes of our past.
Maybe one day, he will come back."

He did.

Yours Sincerely.
'Izzah Syauqina

Do You Still Love Him?

Bismillah.

"Do you still love him?" she asked.

"For me, it was never a case of still loving him.  I have never stopped.  I tried to let him go, I told myself to think about everything he had done and all the ways he had hurt me.  But all I could think about was my smile in the mornings, and my laughs late at night.  He was the reason for that; he made my days better.

Sure, you're going to have bad days.  But the good always outweighed them.  I guess what I'm trying to say is that.. he had my heart since...... who knows when.

Some pieces I have already taken from him.  Some I'm afraid, I'll never get back.  Either way, his love  is mine to nurture."

Yours Sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

It's So Tragic

-

It's so tragic
That after everything you said to me
Every dagger you shot right through my soul..
It always comes back to you.
Everything I do
Everything
Everything
I want it ends with you.
And I can't figure out why.
All I really wanted was
For you to remember me
As someone you loved
So much it consumed you.
But it turns out you never really loved me
Like you said you do.
It's so tragic that you need me
For a benefit, not for you.

Favourite Special Place

I have a unique, favorite special place
where I always like to be.
It is warm and safe and pleasurable;
I’m at peace there and free to be me.

This special place can come to me at will
or I can go to it.
I am relaxed when I am lying down
and I am comforted when I sit.

I look forward to this special place,
I want to be there all the time.
But I know that it’s not feasible,
so I maximize the moments when this place is mine.

Have you figured out this special place?
Based on my description, how could you not know?
That in your presence is a unique and special place
where I feel complete and joyously aglow.

You are the key to my unique favorite special place,
a grand structure filled with beauty, grace, and charm.
Up against your chest, close to your heart, is my favorite special place,
embraced by the gift of your sweet love and your muscular arms.❤️

Caption from: @muslimhusbandwife

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Seksanya Rindu

Bismillah

Janji yg terpateri
Aku ku bawa meniti hari
Walaupun peritnya tak tertanggung kuhadapi
Lantaran jalan hidup ini terlalu berduri
Pernah hampir kukuburkan janjimu daripada hati
Namun kupunya keyakinan diri
Janjimu pasti kan jadi realiti
Merinduimu mengajar aku erti

SEKSANYA RINDU

Aku tertanya-tanya kenapa aku menyiksa diri
Untuk terus merinduimu
Mungkin kerana kaulah 'nur'ku ketika ku teraba-raba menagih secebis kebahagiaan sejati
Mengenal hakikat kejadian ini.
Kaulah yg membawaku mengenal Rabbi
Dan hanya dgn itulah kemanisan hidup ini bisa kurasai.
Jiwaku sering merindui hikmah kalimahmu
Seorang daie
Lantaran itulah ku kan terus memanjat doa agar kita dipertemukan lagi
Mengikat janji
Mendokong risalah ini.
Andai tidak di sini
Nun di syurga menanti
Jika kita layak menghuni.

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina

Redha Dalam Penantian

Bismillah..

Dalam hidup, manusia hanya merancang. Allah penentu segalanya.
Baik atau buruk sesuatu perkara, tak dapat dinilai oleh manusia. Kita harapkan redhaNya semata.

Tuhanku, aku tidak mengerti apa perancanganMu, tapi aku percaya Kau pasti akan merancang yang terbaik.

Tuhanku, Dalam penantian ini kuharapkan redhaMu.

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina

Moga

Langit Itu

Lihat langit itu.
Tidak pernah jemu memayungi dirimu, diriku dan dirinya.
Walaupun gelap gelita seisi bumi,
Namun dalam tak sedar ia sentiasa terang dalam gelap.

Iya,
Seperti dirinya.
Itu,
Yang di sana.

Yang dalam diam tak pernah putus doa buatmu,
Dalam diam cuba membahagiakan dirimu.
Untuk setiap doanya dia mahu gembira bahagia selimutimu,
Dan dia ingin duka hiba jauh pergi bersama angin.

Biar wujudnya langsung tak tersedar,
Tak mengapa buatnya,
Kerna padanya,
Membahagiakan yang teristimewa itu sudah menjadi separuh dari hidupnya.

Ajloun, Jordan
26th Jan 2016

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Shall I Tell You Why?

Bismillah

Shall I tell you why I stayed?
Someone asked once, why I put up with everything I did when I was with him.  Like somehow I had to deal with it.  But that was never the case.  I chose him.  From the day we met, I could have chosen not to text him back, I could have chosen to ignore him.  But I did what I wanted to.  Because there was something about him, something I found hard to define.

Sometimes when you get to know someone, you begin to understand who they are and what goes on in their mind.  You get to know their soul, and that's what it was like with him.  Maybe he wasn't the kind of guy you'd tell your parents about at first, but I knew the kind of man he would become.  I believed in him, and that's all he needed.

He needed someone to pick him up on his worst days, he needed someone to tell him that everything was going to be okay.  He needed someone to push him to the limits and off, and make him believe that whatever people says about him may not be true, and that he need not listen to them.

They asked me why I stayed, my answer was quite simple; I loved him.  I loved who he was when he was around me.  Maybe he wasn't best for me, that's what many of them thought.. but maybe I was best for him?  Maybe I can be the one that changed his life and be there to help him become the man he could only dream about.  I stayed for as long as I could have, and I wonder after all these years... if his heart wishes to have me back.

He did.  And I was right to have stayed and waited for him.  I was right when I didn't give up on him although I almost did.  He's mine now, to say.  And for the years to come if Allah wills, we'll be together as one.  Ignore what people would say.  I loved him, and still loving him, insya Allah.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Aurat Terjaga, Maruah Terpelihara

Bismillah

Dewasa ini, ramai di kalangan kaum wanita yg berhijab disebabkan fesyen. Padahal, ajaran Islam tidak pernah menyuruh wanita Islam bertudung semata-mata, tetapi dikehendaki menutup aurat. Tidak kira dgn tudung langsir sekalipun 😅

Sekiranya sekadar memakai tudung sahaja, ia tidak dinamakan menutup aurat mengikut kehendak Islam. Justeru, didapati bahawa wanita bertudung yang ditangkap ketika melakukan maksiat dan perkara-perkara tidak senonoh hampir kesemuanya atau majoritinya tidak menutup aurat walaupun mereka bertudung! 😰

Masyarakat Islam wajar memahami perbezaan di antara tudung fesyen dan tudung yang menutup aurat. Boleh dikatakan amat ramai sekali wanita Islam pada hari ini memilih untuk memakai tudung fesyen daripada tudung untuk menutup aurat. Apa tidaknya, kelihatan amat ramai wanita yang memakai tudung, tetapi dalam masa yang sama mengenakan seluar ‘jeans’ yang ketat yang menonjolkan bentuk tubuh. Begitu juga mereka yang bertudung, tetapi juga dibaluti dengan baju ketat yang menonjolkan bentuk dada mereka dengan begitu jelas. Tidak kurang pula wanita yang bertudung ini memakai pakaian yang jarang menampakkan tubuh badan mereka.

Kalau beginilah tudung yang dipakai, ia hanya boleh dianggap sebagai tudung fesyen, bukannya berhijab sepertimana dikehendaki di dalam ajaran Islam.

Kalaulah perkara seumpama ini terus berlaku, maka jelaslah bahawa kekeliruan dalam persoalan aurat dalam kalangan wanita pada hari ini telah membawa kepada penyakit barah yang semakin lama semakin parah. Sehubungan dengan itu, perlulah disuntik kesedaran dengan segera berasaskan ilmu agar umat Islam kembali menghayati peraturan dan sistem aurat yang wujud dalam syariat Islam yang bertujuan membawa kebaikan dan keharmonian hidup individu mahupun masyarakat.

Fenomena ini bukan sahaja menimpa masyarakat Melayu kita. Malah, masyarakat dan komuniti Arab juga terpengaruh oleh fesyen tudung yg pelbagai sehingga mereka lupa bahawa 'tudung' dan 'hijab' itu adalah dua perkara berbeza.

Tidak salah berfesyen!
Tapi pilihlah ikut kehendak agama. Bukan kehendak nafsu semata.

Marilah kita saling ingat-mengingati. Yg utama, kita mulakan dgn diri kita.

AURAT DIJAGA, MARUAH TERPELIHARA

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina