I thought it would be best to get myself attached the halal way soon.
Only, I don't know if I'm strong enough for that.
I don't know how my parents would react too.
We've talked about this before, and they want to get me married off early.
But what if I really do want that?
How would they react?
Allah yusahhil umurana.
Amiin!
Here's a message I wish to send, but just can't bring myself to, cause I know I like the company.
Minus the heartaches.. which I'm over with insya Allah.
"I think we should leave this here now. I think this silence shouldn't break anymore. Words unspoken should be left like that forever. For there are some things in life which can never be explained. Let go of this feelings and emotions no matter how difficult it is at the moment. Perhaps it is our destiny. Have faith in Allah. He has something better for you. And you'll be thankful for this in the future. But this moment now and here let go of all the feelings even if the sword is piercing through your soul, even if your heart is dripping blood. Let go of it all.."
Ok, maybe that's too harsh. But I'm sure you get it? Yes? Well, around that line is fine.
Problem is, I can't bring myself to. I know it's gonna hurt you. And hurting you is equivalent to hurting myself as well. 7 years since we've known each other, we sure share a lot of stuffs - stuffs people know, stuffs we kept to each other... Allah musta'an.
Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina
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