I Don't Want Him To Know

I've been lonely tonight.  I've been fighting the urge to text him and tell him that I miss him.  I don't want him to know anymore.

I wonder if he even misses me at all.
(Although he said he does.. but there's still the other side waiting on him.. and I always wonder how's things going on the other side..)

It's easiest when I don't see him, I won't deny that.  But I just want to be able to see him without it hurting.  I don't want him out of my life forever, I don't want him to forget me.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina