Sunday, 28 June 2015

Treat Him Right

Alhamdulillah thumma Alhamdulillah..

27th June 2015, 10 Ramdhan 1436H
Around 3-4pm

I was engaged to him (in the views of Islam), in the presence of all my family members including my grandfather, and my future mother in-law.

A simple procedure, Alhamdulillah. The nervousness was extremely hard. But the 'after effects' of it was a huge sigh of relief!

No one says it's easy.

Insya Allah, may this relationship be in His redha always.. Amiin!

I'm still trying to process this fact; that I'm someone's fiancée now. And insya Allah we will discuss further on the date of engagement in the view of our community.

Nonetheless, insya Allah.. I pray to Allah that this step in life will bring me and him closer to Allah. Amiin!

That's all for now. Getting ready for iftar over at his house.
Happy tarawih~

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Tuesday, 23 June 2015

Doing Good is Very Expensive

Marriage is a Sunnah of our Prophet SAW.
A lot of youngsters today is complaining of fitnah and the fear of falling into zina (fornication).  A lot of them are university students whom can't afford getting married on their own.

The Prophet SAW instructed youths to fast if they are unable to afford marriage.  However, it is the duty of the parents to help their son or daughter to get married if they are unable to do that on their own.

Scholars say that it is mandatory to get married for those who fear falling into forbidden relationships.

I can't understand why most parents risk their children falling in such forbidden relationships and insist that they marry only when they finish school, or when employed.  Falling into zina is very easy, while doing good is very expensive today; financially, and emotionally.

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This is very true.

It's understandable that you want to establish yourself before you get married.  For men especially, you want to get married when you know you can provide for your wife and family.

Some may disagree, but I believe.. if two people fall in love, the right thing to do is to get married or have a nikah.  The rest will come after, insya Allah.

At this point, I am very disappointed with some people..  let's just not say who.  Would they rather, their children fall into zina?  Why is there such hostility towards this topic when their children confidently says they are ready for it, and has acknowledged the responsibilities that comes with it..?  I mean, no matter what their children are doing right now, no matter at what stage they are in life, why is there no support for a sunnah?

Members of the public, what are your views?
She's 21, and he's 23.  And they are ready to take the next step.

Allahu a'lam.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina 

Tuesday, 16 June 2015

A Date

15th June 2015

We met.  It wasn't a date exactly.  Rather, it's a date he randomly chose to meet up after so long.  We had our dinner, and did some catch up.

If he's aim was to make me happy that night, he did well.  I must say that despite not meeting him after so long, I was more comfortable around him now that our meet ups before.  I was more of myself.  It made me certain that he's the one I need in my life.

B.V, Nando's, 1/4 chicken with garlic bread and iced chocolate, grilled chicken in pita on it's own and Heaven & Earth Green Tea.  Makes me hungry again as I typed this out.

Teasing and sharing as we had our dinner, a small talk following that, until the taxi ride ends just behind my block.  I love it all!

The talk.  Sincerely, I love the idea of just sitting by him and listening.  He's feeling extremely guilty over the past incidents and encounters, but I can't get him to understand that I'm over those stuffs and are ready to focus on our future.  I am finding ways to let my parents know about us and all our plannings.  And I need him to stay focused and be supportive.  That's what I need now.  I'm a bit shy about these stuffs.. so I needed time, and most importantly his support.

However looking at his condition yesterday... I'll have to deal with it myself, while helping him pick himself up again.  I don't like him having very low self-esteem.  So I'll do whatever it takes to help him get back on track again.  I'm not sure I can.. but there's no harm trying, right?

16th June 2015

Today, he dropped by.  This time bringing us Ajwa dates, together with a sister's order.  My brother took it from him while I'm home busy with some cooking preparations for our late lunch and dinner.

Nothing much, but my brother did say something about him being his brother in-law.  I just laughed it off.

Tomorrow, on a side note.. I plan to break the news to my mum.  Do pray for us.  I hope she's open to the idea of us getting married soonest possible insya Allah.

Thank you!

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Friday, 12 June 2015

Solitude

I want to stay up all night painting my feelings away but I've got no brushes and I've got no paint. I've got no pencils, I've got no paper. Sad moment when everything is trapped in your head.

Airports; one of the best place to clear your messed and disturbed mind.

Allah musta'an..

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Thursday, 11 June 2015

Won't Last Forever

I can feel your pain through the words you speak.  The cold truth of reality.  You meet people in this world that are unable to understand your soul.  There are people in this world you trust with all your heart, only to have them betray you, lose you along the way, and here you are trying to find your way back.  I've learnt what you suffer will continue to make you stronger.

Don't let the actions of others change the person they once claimed to love.  This is not the end of your story, it's the start of you learning how to live without those you've loved.  All the words in the world will not always make you feel better.

Just know this feeling won't last forever.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Wednesday, 10 June 2015

His Presence Was Enough

A friend was what he was.  A stranger is what he is now.  A friend of my heart he will always be.
Let's start over.

I heard he'd come clear with her.  He's starting over, insya Allah.

He was a good man, actually one of the best I know.  You wouldn't think it.  But he was.  Whenever I saw him, my heart would tremble, not because I was scared of him.  But because I was scared of the way he made me feel.  When he looked at me it was as if he was trying to read the stories behind my eyes.  It was like he was longing for me to tell them all to him one by one.  How beautiful is that?  For someone to want to know you, to know every piece that made you who you are.

I never wanted better, I just wanted someone who would understand me.  Understand even if they hardly knew how.  And that's what he did.  He didn't have to speak to show me he was there.  His presence was enough.  It gave me the power to speak up and not hide myself from the world.  I knew at the end of the day he would be there, not fighting my battles for me but comforting me through every hardship.  Being there.  That's all  I ever needed.  That's why I chose to stay.  Right beside him.  That's where I felt safe.  He did that for me.

The best thing I ever did was love him because he taught me how to love myself.  He was a broken man and I was the woman hoping to mend his soul.  I pray I did, and if I didn't I hope someone else does, because he healed parts of me I didn't even know existed.  I may never be his, but I pray for him everyday.  He deserves the world and it's sad because he doesn't even know it.

One day, insya Allah.. I'd love to tell him how much he's worth.  A lot, if not to the world, to me.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Tuesday, 9 June 2015

I'd Wait

The people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, no matter how far they wander.


Let me just me recall, being frank (apologies on the language).
I was the one who took your bullshit.  I was the one who actually cared about you.  I was the one who stuck around even when everyone told me to leave.  I was the one who loved you even when you gave me every reason not to.  Lastly, I was the one who was there for you when no one else was.

Why?


I was almost over him, about a year ago..  Sincerely, I waited for him in silence.  I knew he's happy by the looks of it.  But deep down, I felt as if I needed him.  There's something about his presence that makes me who I am today.  It wasn't as if he chose what's gonna happen next.  Life is a matter of choice, a teacher always said.  But what if the wrong choice makes a better you today?

Back to the question.
He was the only man I felt I can love like family.  He knew the language to my soul.  He'd often talk about life, and things that matters to him.  His words may not be wise, but it's like music to my soul.  I know I'm at ease.

I fought for the words he kept close to his heart because I wanted to know the man he was.  There's something about a man that's been wounded before.  His scars told stories that I never thought a woman like me would know the meaning of.  I admired his courage, I admired his honesty.  And when he laughed, everything inside me laughed with him.

What's Next?

I fear his love.  I fear the intensity.  But I'll wait, for the day he becomes halal.  I'll sure have a lot to say.  Let's just practice sabr and wait a little more, because I know how it felt to be loved by a man like him; a man that caught fire from those around him, but never let the flame touch me.

I'd wait for him.  It's like he lived for storms.  His heart as soft as a child, only those close to him knew.  Every time his eyes met mine, my soul would smile.  To know a man would fight for both of us, to know a man who'd do anything to protect those he loved.


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And if he were to leave again, I'd watch him from a distance, I'd wish his name on every tide, standing at the edge of the shore.  I'd hope and I'd pray that he would come back to me again, if Allah wills.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina 

Monday, 8 June 2015

رحلة طويلة (Long Holidays)

Summer holidays mode on!!
Alhamdulillah, with finals just over a few hours ago, it's time for me to relax the mind and body, insya Allah..

Just a note to myself this long summer holiday,
I know the road is long and I know you're hurting.  But look back for a second.  Look at how far you have come.  It's a long journey.  It's the hardest one you have faced yet.  But you survived it before and with the mercy of Allah, you will survive, insya Allah..  Amiin!

All the best!  If he is meant to be, insya Allah all will go well.  Amiin!

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

So Much to Look Forward To

~ There's no reason to look back when you have so much to look forward to. ~

Alhamdulillah, final exam are finally over for this semester..
Looking forward to be back home to a whole lot of family time, insya Allah!!

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Everything will be okay.  It may not be today or tomorrow, but it will be.  Every pain we feel is important.  Every struggle is important.  Sometimes it feels like an endless battle, a battle we try so hard to fight but never quite end up winning.

The beauty of it though, is that we do win, we just don't know it.
Pain teaches us patience, it show us glory.  We as humans mourn what we've lost and cry for what we don't have.  Everything sent to us is sent by Allah, the One who loves us the most.  Once we learn to trust Allah, the heavy weight in our hearts will begin to fade.

There is always light where Allah is.  Always remember that Allah does not burden a soul with what it cannot bear and overcome.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina 

Saturday, 6 June 2015

Apples - Delay Your Judgment

A lovely little girl was holding two apples with both hands.

Her mum came in and softly asked her little daughter with a smile, "My sweetie, could you give your mum one of your two apples?"

The girl looked up at her mum for some seconds, then she suddenly took a quick bite on one apple, and then quickly on the other.

The mum felt the smile on her face freeze.  She tried hard not to reveal her disappointment.  Then the little girl handed one of her bitten apples to her mum, and said, "Mummy, here you are. This is the sweeter one."

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No matter who you are, how experienced you are, and how knowledgeable you think you are, always delay judgement. Give others the privelege to explain themselves. What you see may not be the reality. Never conclude for others.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Friday, 5 June 2015

قلب امراة (A Woman's Heart)

A woman's heart is so pure.  You can break her heart and she will still love you with every broken piece.

على قيد الحياة (Still Alive)

You waited for something which was impossible.  He couldn't even keep his promise to marry you.
Well, not when she knows he still have someone waiting for him every day, meeting as and when they want to..  And saying words of love any minute of the day.

You kept thinking what if, but slowly you realised as time went on.  You cannot hold onto something which doesn't belong to you, it never did.  You mistook his words for love when he didn't give you any reason to stay.

You hate that sickening feeling you wake up to every morning, that void you can feel every time you breathe.  It's hard to survive without the one person who gave you a reason to live (or so..).  But it's worse when that reason no longer became the reason to stay.

If he's marrying her, you have no choice but to let go.
He made his choice.. if he cannot fight for you then what are you fighting for?

You're looking for a reason to survive in this heartache.  But don't you know?  You have to die in order to live, you bury you soul alongside your love (for this once).

The new person you become will be a tiny fragment of your love for him.
That's all you will be.
You will survive one day, insya Allah.

For the decision making, I leave it all to my parents, and only Him.
Insya Allah..
Amiin!

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Thursday, 4 June 2015

Cure to Love

Peranan Wanita Dalam Islam

Peranan wanita tidak sekadar pemuas nafsu atau penyambung keturunan dan pengurus rumah tangga semata-mata.  Malah, peranan wanita jauh lebih luas skopnya dalam perspektif Islam; agama pembela kaum wanita.

Alangkah jahilnya apabila ada sesetengah orang yang berpendapat bahawa nasib dan gerakan wanita Islam adalah lambat dan terhad, malah dikekang oleh akidah Islamiyah.

Benarkah Islam itu mengehadkan ruang gerak kerja wanita, atau Islam memberikan panduan ke arah matlamat gerakan wanita yang sebenar?

Islam datang mengangkat darjat dan mengiktiraf peranan wanita.  Lantaran itu, setiap wanita haruslah kembali menghayati Islam.

Sesungguhnya untuk kembali menghayati Islam, kita perlu kembali kepada madrasah Rasulullah SAW, iaitu proses aawl tarbiah Islamiyah (pendidikan) yang dilaksanakan oleh Rasulullah SAW di bawah petunjuk Ilahi, bukan selainNya.  Asas untuk memperbaiki ummah ialah dengan memperbaiki usrah (keluarga) dan permulaan untuk memperbaiki usrah ialah dengan memperbaiki individu termasuklah wanita.  Usrah akan sempurna apabila wanita sedar akan peranannya.

Wanita disebut al-asatizatul alam (mahaguru alam), iaitu mahaguru yang mula-mula sekali berperanan untuk mendidik generasi kita (atau mana-mana generasi sekalipun).  Wanita yang tangannya mengayun buaian mampu menggegarkan dunia.  Sehingga ada ungkapan yang mengatakan wanita itu sungguh mempengaruhi hidup manusia; seorang ibu itu memerlukan 20 tahun untuk mendidik anaknya tetapi seorang wanita jahat hanya memerlukan 20 saat untuk menggoda dan menjatuhkan seorang lelaki.

Bagi seorang wanita bergelar Muslimah sejati pula, dia tidak pernah lari dan lalai dalam mengikuti sistem Islam dalam keadaan apa sekalipun walaupun terasing dan terbuang.  Dia tidak membiarkan hawa nafsunya lepas bebas laksana seekor haiwan liar sebagaimana wanita barat, melainkan memagarinya dengan lunas-lunas Islam yang agung dan luhur.  Wanita Islam yang berkualiti seperti itulah wanita sebenar yang mampu mencabar tamadun Barat yang sekular itu.  Di tangannya penentu jaya dan tidaknya sesuatu bangsa atau baik buruknya akhlak sesuatu kaum.  Runtuhnya akhlak mereka penentu runtuhnya sesuatu kaum.

Sebagai pendidik alam ini, setiap wanita perlulah melalui proses Tarbiah Islamiyah dan jika tidak terlaksana proses ini maka malanglah generasi Islam kerana mendapat didikan daripada wanita-wanita yang tidak mempunyai persiapan Islam.

Oleh itu, wanita perlu memahami peranan mereka kerana kesannya amatlah mendalam yang mana mereka mampu memperbaiki masyarakat sekiranya dihalakan matlamat ke sana.  Justeru, setiap wanita hendaklah memperbaiki diri dengan mendidik hati sanubari semoga mendapat asas untuk memperbaiki keluarga serta orang lain dengan fikrah Islam sebenar yang tulus suci.  Tarbiah yang dimaksudkan perlu diperjelaskan maksudnya agar tidak mendapat perspektif yang sukar dan samar di minda wanita.

Matlamat utama tarbiah adalah untuk melahirkan insan yang meletakkan Allah sebagai Rabb (Tuhan) dan penyembahan kepadaNya adalah mutlak, hanya kepadaNya, bukan selainNya.  Pendek kata, melahirkan insan yang hidupnya hanyalah untuk Allah sehingga setiap urusannya dan urusan masyrakat ditadbir dengan hukum-hukum Allah.  Persiapan inilah yang perlu meresap ke naluri wanita, malah setiap insan sepatutnya.   Tarbiah pula ialah penggunaan cara atau pendekatan yang paling berkesan untuk berinteraksi dengan fitrah manusia dan menambat hati mereka dengan cara hidup Islam sesuai dengan kemampuan dan uslub (cara) masing-masing.  Begitulah mudahnya tarbiah dan mampu dilaksanakan oleh setiap wanita secara psikologi sebagai mahaguru alam.

Sesungguhnya wanita memang benar-benar mendapat tempat yang mulia, dihormati dan disanjung tinggi oleh Islam.  Pengurniaan taraf wanita ini memang tercatat dalam Al-Quran dan As-Sunnah iaitu pengurniaan daripada Allah dan RasulNya.

Daripada Bilal bin Rabbah r.a, katanya, "Pada suatu hari aku menyaksikan Rasulullah SAW membuat empat garis di atas bahu sambil berkata bahawa wanita yang paling mulia di syurga ialah Khadijah binti Khuwailid, Fatimah Az-Zahra binti Muhammad, Mariam binti Imran dan Asiah isteri Firaun."

Inilah sebenarnya srikandi terunggul yang harus diletakkan ke depan sebagai contoh teladan dalam rangka kita kembali kepada hakikat Islam.  Srikandi-srikandi ini benar-benar berperanan sebagai wanita solehah yang mukminah sepanjang hidupnya.  Justeru, wajarlah sirah srikandi-srikandi ini dibaca, difahami, dihayati, dan dicontohi agar peranan agung mereka dalam pembentukan ummah tetap diwarisi oleh wanita-wanita solehah setiap zaman.

Skop peranan wanita adalah luas meliputi peranannya sebagai
• anak solehah (baik - penyejuk mata orang tua),
• isteri a'qilah (bijak - menambat hati suami),
• ibu mithaliah (contoh - ikutan yang baik buat anak-anak),
• hamba Allah mu'tiah (taat - patuhi suruhan dan jauhi laranganNya),
• individu Muslimah (berperibadi Islam - membaiki diri dan menunaikan kewajipan seorang Muslimah serta disulami bunga-bunga akhlak yang menawan) serta
• mujahidah mukminah (menyumbang kepada tertegaknya Islam dimuka bumi).

Setiap wanita perlu menghayati peranan-peranan ini sebagai elemen yang saling berkaitan dan satu kewajipan yang perlu dilaksanakan secara serentak.  Maka, sudah tentu peranan-peranan ini perlu dilaksanakan oleh seorang wanita sepanjang hidupnya.

- Seindah Mawar Berduri

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina

Lestari - Kupetik Bintang Bintang

Kupetik bintang-bintang
Biarpun banyak halangan
Rela tempuhi segalanya
Onak yang kupijak bagai tak rasa

Kusedar sejak mula
Tiada jalan yang mudah
Tapi kuyakini di dalam hati
Akhir terkota jua sumpah dan janji

Walau sukarnya bagi mu sayang
Perjalanan menyakitkan
Tapi hadapilah dengan kesabaran
Kan tiba kebahagiaan

Tiada batasannya
Usia ataupun rupa
Kita bersama memulakannya
Sehingga ke akhir kita terus berdua

Walau sukarnya bagi mu sayang
Perjalanan menyakitkan
Tapi hadapilah dengan kesabaran
Kan tiba kebahagiaan

Tiada batasannya
Usia ataupun rupa
Kita bersama memulakannya
Sehingga ke akhir kita terus berdua

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Aku akan sedia ada untuk yang memerlukan aku, insya Allah.
Tapi... akan ada kah mereka waktu aku memerlukan nanti?
Allahu 'alam..

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina

Don't Treat Them Like They've Just Gotten A Contagious Disease

When somebody you know is backsliding, don’t treat them like they’ve just gotten a contagious disease.
In times of trouble we should reach out to people, not pull away from people.

Whatever you do, don’t avoid them. 
Avoiding somebody you know is backsliding just drives them further away from Allah تعالى, and it’s what the devil wants –– to get them alone so that he can continue to wage war in their mind.

Be there.
Show them that you care. Have mercy for them so that Allah تعالى have mercy upon you.
Besides, Islam forbids us to severe ties from one another. All the best!

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina
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My Heart's with Him

My heart was his.
I thought it was.

We were never lovers, nor were we friends.  We were something in between, something I was afraid to reach.  It haunts me sometimes, the words i never found the courage to speak.

He used to come back, and I would let him.  This time maybe he would recognise me as the woman wanting to take care of him.  It happened so often but something inside my heart kept hope.

Even though he's gone, I sometimes wonder if a part of me will always be his.

When I prayed, I prayed for him.  He was part of my life I won't forget.  I loved a man I never had.  We almost made it... but my mind, it's at peace.

'Cause now my heart's with Him.  Where it always was meant to be..

This time, I leave all of it to Him and to only Him I depend on.
Insya Allah..

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Tuesday, 2 June 2015

قصتنا (Our Story)

She will tell her children the story of you.  She promises she won't let the memories of you and her fade, even if the love you had for her had, has, or will.
She will use you as an example to fight for the one you love, even though you didn't fight for her.  She will still encourage her children to fight for theirs.
You will be her heart and her story.  A memory and a lesson.  All in one.  And she promises she will never let her sons make the same mistake you did.
Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Monday, 1 June 2015

Be with Her Because..

Be with her because you actually want to be with her, because you actually see a potential future with her, not because you are used to being with her.  Not because you're scared of the thought that being without them will ruin you.


The point of being in a relationship is to enjoy each other's company, is to be there to support each other when they need it most.  No one person, defines who you are.  They only compliment you.


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The conversation got serious when I was asked about my dowry; how much would my parents agree on, and when can he see my parents.

Before that, would I want my future husband to bear my university costs?

All of that questions, half of it was answered in the same phone conversation.
Another half of it would depend on my parents agreement.

Being the eldest, I feel awkward..... hmm.

Ya Allah, kalau dia jodoh yang terbaik untukku..
Kau bukalah pintu hatiku untuk terima segala keburukan dan kelemahannya sepertimana dia sedia menerima aku seadanya.
Kau permudahkanlah urusan kami andai Engkau redhai masjid yang bakal dibina ya Allah..
Amiin!

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

Rintihan Wanita Islam Di Dalam Penjara Syria

Rintihan Wanita Islam Di Dalam Penjara Syria

Surat ini telah berjaya dibawa seludup keluar dari Baad Assad Syria.  Ia menceritakan tentang rintihan wanita Islam yang kurang dikurung di dalam penjara Syria.


Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Penyayang.
Kami telah menulis berpucuk-pucuk surat dengan air mata dan rintihan hati tetapi malangnya tidak satu pun sampai kepada umat Islam di luar pintu besi ini.  Kami tidak dibenarkan menulis atau membaca.  Kertas dan pen diharamkan.  Penderitaan kami tidak dapat menembusi dinding-dinding hitam yang mengurung kami.  Tetapi kami yakin bahawa Insya Allah surat ini akan sampai kepada umat Islam seluruh dunia.

Dalam surat ini kami menceritakan tentang penderitaan dan kelaziman yang dikenakan oleh binatang-binatang pemabuk yang digunakan oleh kerajaan Syria ke atas kami dalam penjara jahanam ini.  Kalaulah setakat pukulan dan kejutan elektrik kami dapat bersabar menahannya, tetapi penderitaan kami di sini lebih daripada itu.

Dapatkah kami terus bersabar menahan hati apabila terdapat antara kami dirogol tanpa belas sehingga menghembuskan nafas terakhir.  Kami berharap kami todak diperanakkan di bumi ini.  Dari hati kami yang terseksa kami memohon agar semua umat Islam berusaha untuk menyelamatkan nyawa dan maruah kami.  Kalau dahulu, apabila seorang Muslimat meminta pertolongan daripada Khalifah Al-Mu'tasim kerana dizalimi dan dibunuh oleh binatang yang tidak berperikemanusiaan.

Ramai antara kami yang mengandung akibat perbuatan mereka.  Kami tidak meminta kami dibebaskan.  Kami hanya berharap agar penjara ini diletupkan dengan kami sekali di dalamnya.

Wahai Umat Islam seluruh dunia, cukuplah dengan tidurmu, takutlah di waktu kamu semua akan disoal di hadapan Allah di akhirat nanti tentang apakah yang kamu lakukan apabila mengetahui kezaliman dan jenayah yang dilakukan ke atas kami.  Apakah kesalahan-kesalahan Muslimat ini sehingga mereka dirogol dengan ganas dan ditelanjangi.  Mereka dipukul dan dikenakan kejutan elektrik.

Apakah kesalahan-kesalahan Muslimat ini sehingga terdapat Muslimat ini sehingga terdapat Muslimat muda yang terpaksa dihantar ke hospital dalam separuh mati akibat dirogol tanpa belas kasihan oleh 26 tukang seksa.  Apakah kesalahan mereka?  Suami mereka dibunuh di hadapan mata mereka sendiri.

Wahai umat Islam seluruh dunia, sebenarnya kamu nyenyak tidur.  Apakah jawapan kamu semua wahai umat Islam seluruh dunia?  Apakah kami akan terus berharap supaya kamu akan dapat menyelamatkan kami dari neraka yang tidak bersempadan ini?  Apakah cahaya murni akan menyinari kami untuk menerangkan hati kami yang terseksa ini???

BANGUNLAH WAHAI UMAT ISLAM SELURUH DUNIA!

Daripada,
Muslimat yang menjadi mangsa thoghut nasionalis Syria.
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  • Diharap kita semua tersentak, sedar dan insaf apabila membaca artikel ini.  Sekiranya tidak terasa apa-apa muhasabahlah diri.
  • Bacalah dengan mata hati untuk melihat kebenaran.  Tidak ada bezanya Malaysia dan Syria.  Di mana-mana pun, Muslimat akan berhadapan dengan persekitaran yang menakutkan selagi umat Islam terus lalai begini.  Bangunlah!

- Seindah Mawar Berduri

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina

 
 
 
 

You Left Her with a Broken Heart

She didn't ask you to leave, you did that all by yourself.  There were days where she would've fought for you, she probably still would.  There were times when I'd listen to her talk about you, trying to understand why you did the things you did.

You left her with a broken heart many times before you decided to leave.  She was just a girl who kept a place for you in her heart.  She carried you in her soul for so long.  But that didn't matter to you, you were never there to dry the tears you caused.  You were only there for yourself.

She climbed mountains to find peace, she's found strength again.  I only ever ask of you, if you ever see a girl like her, before you look twice, remember what you did to the girl you didn't deserve.

She's not the same girl you knew before.  The girl standing by you today is a stronger living.  She's stronger because of your doing.  If you're leaving now, silently leave and never appear in front of her again.  'Cause she's gonna hate you up to the core.  So if you're leaving, do it quickly and soon.

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina

~ Bicara Hati ~

Di negeri sendiri,
Makan minum.. sakit pening.. ada orang tengokkan.

• Dah masuk waktu makan, ada orang panggil keluar bilik.. Lambat keluar, lampu bilik tiba-tiba mati sendiri (macam terputus bekalan elektrik gitu lah lagaknya..)
Ye lah panggil makan je.. bukan panggil masak..  Susah sangat nak keluar hmm..

• Nak ikut adik-adik jalan kat Bugis tapi mabuk dan pitam,
Ada 'abang' pimpin jalan pelan-pelan..
Sampai ada mata-mata yang pandang semacam, dua macam, dan tiga macam! Tapi aku peduli apa...

• Nak makan luar hujung minggu tapi tak tahu nak makan apa,
Ada atok selalu ajak keluar makan.
Kalau atok ajak tu maknanya nak belanja lah..

• Nak ikut ibu merayap kat Bedok lepas appointment tapi kurang sihat,
Ada ibu pegang jalan pelan-pelan..
Balik tahan taxi lah.. hehe
Ni bukan ngada-ngada, tapi manja..!
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• Nak pergi doctor minta MC tapi tak kuat nak jalan,
Ada ayah temankan..
Dah teman tu kiranya bayarkan sekali lah.. haha!

• Sampai hari terakhir sebelum berangkat pun, masih ada orang gegarkan katil untuk bangun pagi..
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Agaknya kali ni Allah nak tunjukkan betapa aku sangat-sangat bergantung pada orang lain.
Agaknya kali ni Allah nak aku praktikkan pesan ibu; Be independent, Jangan suka susahkan orang, Kalau nak usaha sendiri..
Agaknya kali ni Allah nak aku rasa hidup berdikari tanpa keluarga.
Tapi, ni bukan agak aje.. memang dah berlaku!

Aku lah ibu yang cuci kain, masak, dan kemas tempat sendiri, nasihat itu ini.
Aku lah ayah yang siapkan duit jajan dan duit itu ini..
Aku lah adik yang dipesan itu ini, yang dimanjakan itu ini..
Aku lah juga atok yang belanja diri sendiri..

P/S: Ibu, Ayah, Isha, Muhd, Adk, Atok, jangn serik layan bdk manja sorang ni nnti..

Semoga aku terus cekal dan tabah hadapi semua ni untuk tahun-tahun akan datang.
Amiin!

Yang ikhlas,
'Izzah Syauqina