A Date

15th June 2015

We met.  It wasn't a date exactly.  Rather, it's a date he randomly chose to meet up after so long.  We had our dinner, and did some catch up.

If he's aim was to make me happy that night, he did well.  I must say that despite not meeting him after so long, I was more comfortable around him now that our meet ups before.  I was more of myself.  It made me certain that he's the one I need in my life.

B.V, Nando's, 1/4 chicken with garlic bread and iced chocolate, grilled chicken in pita on it's own and Heaven & Earth Green Tea.  Makes me hungry again as I typed this out.

Teasing and sharing as we had our dinner, a small talk following that, until the taxi ride ends just behind my block.  I love it all!

The talk.  Sincerely, I love the idea of just sitting by him and listening.  He's feeling extremely guilty over the past incidents and encounters, but I can't get him to understand that I'm over those stuffs and are ready to focus on our future.  I am finding ways to let my parents know about us and all our plannings.  And I need him to stay focused and be supportive.  That's what I need now.  I'm a bit shy about these stuffs.. so I needed time, and most importantly his support.

However looking at his condition yesterday... I'll have to deal with it myself, while helping him pick himself up again.  I don't like him having very low self-esteem.  So I'll do whatever it takes to help him get back on track again.  I'm not sure I can.. but there's no harm trying, right?

16th June 2015

Today, he dropped by.  This time bringing us Ajwa dates, together with a sister's order.  My brother took it from him while I'm home busy with some cooking preparations for our late lunch and dinner.

Nothing much, but my brother did say something about him being his brother in-law.  I just laughed it off.

Tomorrow, on a side note.. I plan to break the news to my mum.  Do pray for us.  I hope she's open to the idea of us getting married soonest possible insya Allah.

Thank you!

Yours sincerely,
'Izzah Syauqina